Today is a good day. I got to aerobics, moved my body for the first time in a long time, and feel pretty good having unpacked a household of stuff in just one week. I am beginning to feel settled and I love it here, back in the place where I grew up.
Never thought I would be back here but after coming to peace with my childhood and my former marriage with the help of the Dalian Method, it feels so right!
Sitting in the warm spring sunshine my ideas for fine-tuning my one woman show are flowing…and my body feels really agitated.
What is going on? F E A R? Feeling Excited And Ready? Is it worry? Or so much joy and creative life force that I don’t know what to do with it?
I have to move. I pull out the paints, old paintings, markers, and a blank journal page. Scribble, scribble, not so pretty…. keep going. Yikes. Just keep going.
I begin to slow down and relax into my inner knowing. This is so much more gentle. My scribbles turn into sweeps of color. Is that the Hebrew letter Hei dancing? Could be. Why not? 🙂
I allow my imagination to go. I feel drawn to cut out Hei, Yud, Vav from an old painting. It calms me down further.
The ancients say the letters of the Divine Name of God create harmony in our body and world. It seems to be working.
Still not so pretty a picture, but hey (no pun intended), that’s ok. This is all about moving my energy so I can stop swirling and find the calm amidst the chaos of my mind. Pretty doesn’t matter. Time to get some dinner 🙂